why should i do this? | donthesitate's Blog

ok so...i have these thoughts in my mind, sort of like "answers" or just things that are not important at all that i feel like i NEED to keep  reminding myself of. But when i actually remember the thought i realize that its just another stupid thought.

The past few hours i have stopped myself when i was on the verge of trying to remember those thougths again. ANd im doing pretty good, i feel a bit lighter, a bit clearer, but also a lot more unsure. Im not sure if i should keep this up,  i think i want to.  But will i jsut forget about that memory forever?? i dont think i will, cause ive rehearsed it to many times in my mind, even if i cant recall it completely right now.

Ok whatever...im gonna go for it, i will see how long i can go with this. I wont give in to the urge! It probably sounds wierd and stupid to some but its tough for me. I've been stuck like this for too long, reliving, dwelling, remembering, repeating, regessing. Let it go forever and ever